Identifying Myself.... as a dancer

Everyone all ready knows that I am a rebel. Everyone knows that I will buck and bend the rules. Everyone also knows that I march to the beat of my own drum corps. 
This is not new news, I have been this way my whole life..  Odd, quirky and different.

Dance is no different for me. 

I know what I am not.  I am not a conformist.
Now, don't get me wrong.  I do not think that every dancer who chooses a style and sticks with it as a conformist.  Mostly, because behind every dance style, there is a dancer who is just like me.

I have had many people ask me to define my own style beyond the label of Fusion.  The hard part for me, is that I can't define it.
I don't know how.

Sometimes, this odd way of being can be a detriment to my performing style.  Sure, you can put me in Tribal gear and I can do that, you could probably even put me in a heavily beaded costume and I could do that too.
It's what I have learned in the past.  Sure, it would be rusty and probably a bit awkward like watching a baby elephant walk on ice. 

I have more than once called my own style "Organic Fusion".. since what happens on stage, is reflective of what is going on in that environment.. it's whatever is channeling it's way through me.  Most often it is not so technically sound and that is where the detriment comes in.
The upside of that is quite simply the fact that my personality comes through, very clearly.  You see without a doubt the rebel herself, not hiding, but right there in your face.

I know that I should probably refine her a bit more, reign her in and force more technique down her throat. But, there is fear attached to that.
Maybe, unfounded or irrational fear, that if I do that, then I will lose the "Mine" aspect to the performance.  That I will have somehow conformed to the way that people expect me to dance.

I know that I will have to put a cap on that fear and try to find a balance between refinement and rebellion. Or as Tempest put it, in her own blog... a balance between the heart and the head.. Bringing my dance, in full balance, from the liver.

Until that happens and I am comfortable and happy with the result..  It's Organic Rebel Fusion for me.